Looking on in dread fear and foreboding
You know the Paul and Timothy relationship? Paul is the fatherly and protective spiritual mentor and Timothy is the Paul’s aspiring spiritual protege. Well, I’m a Paul whose worried about his Timothy…
Timothy is playing with fire and he knows, but despite my warnings he persists. I know that to play with fire is to burn by it, and I think he is also aware of this, but still he persists. My admonitions seem to fall on deaf ears because still he persists. I wish naught but the best for him, but still he persists. I know that there are many things that can only be learned through experience, but sometimes one can learn through the experience of others and not through that of personal circumstance. Having been in the situation, I fear for my Timothy.
If he knew how my heart aches and breaks for him, maybe he would behave differently. If he could feel the fire in my marrow and the burn in my soul when I observe him, he would know the severity of the situation. My heart goes out to him and his own heart.
My dilemma is in the age-old question, “How far is too far?” I don’t know when I should turn him over to his folly. I know that such a point comes, but when? How far do I follow him and plead with him before I let him go? He’s physically older than I, but we’re dealing with lives and hearts! Does that not supercede age? It must! It is his life to live, and I know that, but my prayers go out for him all the same.
Fire burns. I wish I could say “end of story”, but it doesn’t end there. Burns must heal, healing takes time, time leaves scars, some scars don’t fade. Some fires must be experienced for purification, but some should be avoided at all costs because the price exceeds the worth.